Yesterday was payday. I went through and organized the bills for the 1st half of the month and you know what? I could pay them all! I also paid off 3 that I had been making payments on for 4 months now! WOW. I even had money left over! And here I was thinking I needed a second job.
I am serious folks, I have been stressed about this...??? I laid out my bills for the 2nd half of the month and my income, and guess what???? Yep I can pay those too! WOW!
I felt so relieved and happy! I worked the rest of the day in my living room at my new place. The windows open, feelin the breeze comin through every now and then... it was so peaceful.

I just love how this program has transformed my life. I am so grateful that when I got here I was a scared snot nosed kid, who had lost it all and not only needed this program but wanted it too!
I am so grateful, because of the people in the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous to learn, who God is, To learn how to recognize Him working in your lives and mine. I am so grateful that when I started applying this program to my life amazing changes in my attitude happened. I softened. I am so grateful to God for putting the most loving and hard assed people in my life when I was newly sober. I learned so much from them. How to go to meetings. How to listen. How to pray. How to read (not really read like I was illiterate, but to slow down and digest what I was reading when reading our literature) How to reach out to others. How to stop thinking about myself so much and to think of others. To do for others.To be accountable. the list just goes on and on

in 3 days, one day at a time I will celebrate 16 years of continuous sobriety!
half my life has been in Alcoholics Anonymous
I have lived and practiced this program for half my life, and not that I have been perfect at it all. And that's OK.

Despite all that has gone on lately, my heart is full of love and gratitude right now.

I am so grateful to of gotten a text from my newly sober uncle, who is having a hard time. We texted back and forth for a while this morning and he was telling me how fucked he felt but sober, and he and I started doing a gratitude list and he came back with this

" The gratitude I have is being sober through this shit" hell yea!!!

that's it from me for now

I am off to enjoy my day off today, have a soft ball tournament all weekend with my peeps, will be a good time. Bay is still with my mom,
Please have a happy and safe 4th of July